When things take a sharp turn away from the usual path,
when problems and comments hurt so much,
when i thought i've been stronger..
No.
They are just like before,
too much for me to handle,
too much for me to hide & pretend everything's okay,
too much for me to fight against,
so overwhelming,
i find it hard to even search for the smallest space to gasp for breath.
I thought things have changed.
I thought i've changed.
I thought i was used to it.
I thought i was stronger than before.

I know, Daddy.. that You're always with me,
seeing me through my difficult times.
During the times when i'd to put up with such probs,
times when i'd to hide myself from others to cry a little,
times when i'd to wipe my own tears,
times when i'd to smile the probs away,
times like this when i'd to blog while holding my tears back,
but Daddy,
though at times i feel like i'm facing such gigantic obstacle alone,
You're unknowingly there for me,
watching me every step of the way.

& during times when i couldn't share the probs with someone close,
times when i didn't even know how to even tell You what i've gone through,
but words ain't needed.
You've been listening to my emotions all this while.
You answer to even my faintest prayer.
You know me best,
even better than i know myself.

Daddy, i'll continue to cling to my faith for You.
I know, with You, these probs ain't anything.
You hold my hand tightest when i'm at my weakest.
I fear not, i fear not of falling.

I surrender everything to You.

I'm very, very sorry dudes!

Do you know of any free image hosting sites besides Photobucket & Blogger?
Gosh, i've got billions of pics piling up man!!! Geeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeez.







So.. today's the first day of Semester 2 & Christmas has just ended.

Received the most number of presents this year compared to the past and i shan't deny that this x'mas was the best so far man!!!!!
:DDDDDDDDDDDDD
Prolly it's cos i went for my very first church camp which ended on x'mas eve and left every camper in the christmasy mood!


These are the amount of presents i bought for the loved ones.

I spent slightly lesser or more than 100 but celebrating such a happy & heart-warming festive like this, who cares about money right?
Really, this is the first time where i bought so many stuff for others without feeling the pinch! Maybe it's true when they say you feel happier giving than receiving.
The lovely smiles the present brought & the "thank you"s made it all worth while.
8)

Besides, it's the Lord's b'day, so.. what's there to be upset for right?!
:D


& Bei, your gift's still with me! HAHAHAHAHAHA.


& PLEASE.. do tell me if you know of super good image hosting sites alright?
Zhou tai tai will lurb eu deep deep. LOL!



CIAO.

LAONIANG SLEPT FOR 16 HOURS STRAIGHT.

Even skipped dinner unknowingly. HAHAH.

It was shiok to the max after having sooooooo many hours of merry making at Bei's house & town and not forgetting the 3 1/2 days of church camp which was aweeeeeeeeeeeeeesome!!!!!
:D
P&W session was the best i've had so far, made many friends and the X'mas celebration was fun to the max!!

Many, many lovely songs were played during church svc ytd! & met up with camp mates too! Whee~

& then, shopping with family at bugis where i bought a new pair of sandals, a new pair of black skinnies and a sleeveless top. Daddy rocks when it comes to payment transactions. HAHAHAHA.



So many pics, so many pics, so many pics! GOSH.

& i'll be towning with B later to drop J a visit to exchange presents before B & i head to the national library for serious business -- UCCD proj research.



School's reopening on Monday. Sigh.

Mia Rose - What would Christmas be like?



What would christmas be like without you here
Im sitting at the bottom of the mistletoe waiting for you to come home,

What would Christmas be like without the songs
Sitting by the fire place reminiscing while we sing along..

And i always believed there's magic on christmas eve
then Santa comes round, & im so glad we found this love we swore to keep

And we walk in the snow, letting our troubles go
to a far away place so that we embrace christmas spirit all around and i say

Merry Merry christmas... today

What would christmas be like without the wait
Crowded round the presents counting minutes, even seconds till we celebrate

What would christmas be like without the smiles
laughing with the twilight moon shining through our window room as we smile..

And i always believed there's magic on christmas eve
then Santa comes round, & im so glad we found this love we swore to keep

And we walk in the snow, letting our troubles go
to a far away place so that we embrace christmas spirit all around and i say

Merry Merry christmas... today

(improvisation)

And i always believed there's magic on christmas eve
then Santa comes round, & im so glad we found this love we swore to keep

And we walk in the snow, letting our troubles go
to a far away place so that we embrace christmas spirit all around and i say

Merry Merry christmas... today!





So looooooooove her originals, this is one of the best!
:DD



Photobucket isn't getting any better so i guess i've to find a new website to get my pics uploaded. Sigh.
Bbq with sec mates last night was grrrrrreat, tho' not many turned up but it's the company that made it all fun!
:D


& laoniang's going for church camp from tmr till wednesday!
I've yet to pack my stuff but thought i should blog before you guys start missing me for 4 days. HAHAHAHAHA.


& oh,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DAYDEEEEEEEEEEEE!
:D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO STEFFI'S DAYDEE TOO!
HAHA.

HOW SIA.
STRESSED.
8(

It's 1.48am now.
Just completed Last Friends drama series.
If it wasn't for Ryo's sake, i'd have given up watching the pretty boring drama.
However, the ending was good. Heng sia, if not i'll regret wasting my time watching it man. HAHAHAHAHAHA.


Anws, is it just my ageing laptop or does your Photobucket lag as much too?
Sigh.


Proj meeting again tmr afternoon (had one this evening).
Dining with Steffi, Leo & Mdm Lau at Pasta de Waraku at Novena tmr night!
That's something to look forward to!
:DD


What's making me even happier & thrilled is that there'll be bbq @ east coast with sec sch mates on fridaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeyyyyyyyy!


& adding on to the almost-perfect topping to my sweetest ice cream, i'll be seeing B tmr!!
:D
Finally, err.... after... 2 days. -.-" LOL!!




UH-OH.
I've yet to wrap all the x'mas presents i've bought!
Gee.
8(

Enough is enough.

Time and time again.
The cycle repeats.
But why?
Gimme a break.

Popo, i miss you.
Lei hai bin dou?
8'((

Hontoni gomene!
(is it spelt like that? don't know right or not still put such big fonts, gei kiang. LOL!)

If you're wondering why i haven't been blogging recently, it's b'cos i was busy watching Hana Yori Dango Seasons 1&2 .. and the movie. Cried like a baby, Tsukasa rocks!!! Awww~ HAHAHA.
I tell you, i watched until so bek chek lor... i had to even drop Anne an sms to make her tell me the ending. LOL! Really watched until super super super bek chek okay, so many events happened before the couple could finally get together. I sooooooooo wanted to pull my hair out man!
Anne saved my hair. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

& ytd, B & i went out to shop for x'mas presents and i spent more than 100bucks on them! I don't even have the guts to see how much's left in my bank account. LOL!
You know how the saying goes, "Ignorance is bliss."
IT IS, REALLY... o well, at least during times like this?

I've got to find time to wrap those presents up man.
B & i were supposed to meet up with J for dinner but was cancelled last minute. Gonna whack that butch up the next time i see him. HAHAHAHA.


O ya, during church service just now, there was a muslim guy who gave an aweeeeeeesomeeeeeeeee testimony! Woooohoooo~ God is great!


So, anws, i've just started watching Code Blue (goes hysteric: yamapi! yamapi! baby pi-pi!! LOL!!) and i soooooooooooooooooo wanted to blog (trust me! i'm s-eee-ri-ous!!) but Photobucket's lagging like mad, it takes a freakin' long time to get the pics loaded.

I guess, it's fated that i should complete my jap drama series first eh? HAHAHAAHAH.


Will update asap, i promise!




Darlings!
Karaoke, Karaoke, Karaoke, Karaoke, Karaoke, Karaoke, Karaoke, Karaoke, Karaoke, Karaoke, Karaoke, Karaoke, Karaoke, Karaoke, Karaoke, Karaoke, Karaoke, Karaoke, Karaoke, Karaoke, Karaoke, Karaoke, Karaoke, Karaoke, Karaoke, Karaoke, Karaoke, Karaoke, Karaoke, Karaoke session @ TopOne this coming week, ai maiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii?
:D
Pwese? HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD MORRRRRRRRRRRNINGGGGGGGGGGGG earthlings!

I wanted to continue my Shibatora drama which Anne recommended but since a particular butch asked me to get my blog updated, i guess i have to before he starts pestering me. LOL!


Saturday, i went over to Sentosa with Derek & B to look for J and his other 2 friends. Pics to be up soon.

Ytd's church svc was great. Worshipping was awesome, the songs were fab and i cried 'cos i was touched. Nvm. LOL.



The last paper on Thursday nearly made me cry 'cos i'd forgotten whatever i'd studied and completed the paper within 20mins. & since i'm a left-hander, when i was writing, i could see Abbas scribbling non-stop! & when i turned to my right, Forgel was doing the same thing as him.
I felt damn stressed 'cos they had soooooooo many things to write, and i was left staring into space 20mins after the paper started.
& since i had my bangs pinned up, i even thought of going to the toilet to wet my bangs & use the hand-dryer to dry it to flatten my bangs down again.
But i didn't have the guts to leave so early so each time the invigilator looked at me, i looked at my paper & pretended i was deep in thought, and.. wait, i was.. really thinking okay.

I thought, "Ok, once the first person leaves, i'll leave."

Soon enough, the first guy stood up & walked out of the room and i walked behind him and ta-dah.
My holiday started a few minutes before others.
.________.


Called & chatted with J till the rest came out of the room.


Derek, B & i trained to Expo for John Little sales where i spent almost 70 bucks on presents for B, Smelly & mommy and i bought a pair of shorts for myself. Yet to buy presents for other loves.
Uh-oh.

So after shopping, we headed to Tampines to look for J and had dinner with him.








On Friday, the 4 of us met up with Esther, Hengyi, YY, and other for a $10-karaoke in Chinatown.
The place was much, much, much nicer than i expected, the room was very cosy and the company was great! Super fun peeps.
But the staff sucked.

& my lousy singing that day made me feel even lousier.
Guess J sang too well, i got damn demoralised and traumatised, i didn't feel confident singing. LOL.

We sang from 2pm all the way to 7pm before heading for dinner.



B's gek sai look. LOL!
:D


Jjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjasonnnnn the butchhhhhhhh. HAHAHA.


Zhou tai tai!





After B & J played a round of pool, one of staff told them they weren't allowed to play anymore COS NO SHORTS ALLOWED & B was wearing shorts.
HELLO, PLS LA HOR, B HAD BEEN PLAYING A ROUND OF POOL IN SHORTS LA! & WHAT'S THE LOGIC BEHIND NOT PLAYING POOL IN SHORTS.
CRAPPPPPPPPPPPPPP! ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR~
>:(



Hengyi.
Thanks for helping us book a room! 8)




Love her to bits! Muacks~ :D






Sunday 16th Nov 'o8
LOL, super lag right, now Dec already! -.-"

So anw, YY visited my church with his friend, Roy.
There was a drama performed during the first 2 adult services and gosh, the drama was touching man. I cried the first time i watched it. LOL! Laoniang emotional cannot meh? HUH?! HUH?! HAHAHAHAHA.






Ryan, B & i woke up earlier for the first adult service and we managed to get the 2nd row seats! Whee~
:D






Brought YY to the 2nd adult svc.


Didn't manage to get good seats but the lightings were still superb to the maxxx!!!




Jonathan & my pretty smiley face. HAHAHAH.
I felt damn short b'side him lor.
8'(((((((((((( LOL.



In the evening, went over to Gong Gong's hse to pick him up before we met B at Northpoint's Xin Wang HK Cafe for dinner.
Super, super, doooooooper long queue! So we killed time by camwhoring. WAHAHAHAHA.








My lurb lurb. LOL!


Rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrryan.




:D


Don't ask me what's B doing, 'cos i'm just as clueless as you okay!! LOL!!


Love this but B looks......... erm, you know la. LOL!




Poor Ryan. HAHAHAHA.


Hannah, hannah, ah beng la, ah beng la. HAHA!


THIS IS CHIO RIGHT!! WO DE AI AI WORXZXZ. HAHAHAHA.


Best pic of Ryan so far.

AND

I

GOTTO

SHOW

YOU

THESE

PICTURESSSSSSSSS

OF

B

BEING

RETARDED,

&

I

MEAN,

FREAKIN'

RETARDED.

LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL.

LOOK AT HIS IRRITATING FACE, LOOK AT HIS F-CUP NEHNEH. WAHAHHAAHAHAHHA.
LAUGH TILL PENG!!


LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL, SO TASMANIAN DEVIL LOR. AND WHEN I'M TYPING THIS, I'M ALREADY ROFL-ING. HHAHAAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA.
B, you better beg me not to show my daddy these pics. LOL!!!


:D


FINALLY, we managed to get a table for 6.







& since it was my treat, my parents ordered so many side orders. LOL, walao.. i worried like mad!








B's.


Laoniang's.






Marrrrrrrrmieeeeeeeeeeee mooooooo~


GONG GONG! :D


Laoniang de Die. LOL!




My chicken chop baked rice was superrrrrrrrrrrrrrb.


It was sooooooooo fab, i didn't even know i drooled. LOLLLLL, that's cheese la, dumb.












THAT'S ALL FOR NOW, DUDES.




Tennis with Derek, J & B tmr at Derek's condo... & a movie after that.


YY!
J!
B1!
B!
I WANNA GO TOPONE FOR KARAOKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!






CIAO!
:D

Whenever i unlock my phone & look at my wallpaper,





I'll start missing my fringe and regret cutting bangs.. by myself just now. Yes, by myself.
Gei kiang lor. Sigh.












































It looks okay in the pics that's cos i chose the better ones out of the few shots i took.
When i had my fringe cut, Mumsy giggled, "So kuku!"


SIAN LAH.
SIAN LAH.
SIAN LAH.


So gei kiang go cut for what sia! Itchy hands.

Some more tmr last paper, how to go out and shop with this hair!
& to add on to my devestation, X'mas is nearing! Uh-oh-nooooo~

How to go to school tmr man! Jialat.
As jialat as today's paper. Sigh.



Emo. LOL!

I'm gonna cut bangs again, either on weds/thurs.
I'm always getting my hair cut, what's new uh. LOL.


On a random note, my index nail cracked and the plan for manicure after exam's tarnished.
8(


So after days of hardcore mugging for Credit Analysis & Administration paper, the first paper's finally over but cham la, i had everything at my finger tips but i just didn't know how to apply & elaborate, ... you see, i'm not much of a crapper.
Don't roll your eyes & go 'ya, ya, ya'.
Ya your head.

Just had a short msn chat with cousin Emily and she said her boyfriend gave her a rabbit as a X'mas gift. Aw, so sweet right! But i guess his calander's ahead of the normal ones by 3 weeks.
HAHAHA.
& when i asked what x'mas gift she's gonna get me, she excused herself to the batheroom.
-.-"
Li hai la. LOL.



& while walking home just now, i bumped into mommy and..

Mommy, "So how? Did any of your friends say my watch nice or not?"

(i wore her watch to school for the test since mine wasn't working anym.)

Me, "No. Your watch branded one ar? This morning when i looked closer and saw 'YSL' on the face, i thought i saw wrongly sia."

(the YSL fonts were so small, i took 18 years to realise mommy's been wearing a branded watch all this while. but the scratches on the face made me think it's just an ordinary watch.)

Mommy, "Wah! You also know YSL is a brand ar?"

Me, "Walao, pls lor.. i read magazines one ok."

Mommy, "Ya, this watch is my 21st birthday present from your daddy leh."

Me, "WAH! How much was it?"

Mommy, "I think about.... $320."

Me, "What the hell, so expensive! No wonder you can't bear to get a new watch all this while la!"

Mommy, "Of course la.. that time Gong Gong already help your daddy get this watch at a cheaper price leh.."

Me, "Walao, daddy saved for how long sia! Poor daddy."

Mommy, "HAHAHAI-YA!"

Me, "Don't know how many meals daddy skipped lor.. how long was he on diet for.. Chinxiang also can't save that amount of money lor."

*starts wondering how materialistic mommy was at 21*

& before you start thinking if i'm materialistic, i'm telling you i'm not. I'm easily contented with simple gifts, really. & if i'm with someone i love, i love him for who he is.. and of course hope it's vice-versa.


When we reached home..

Mommy, "Wah.. look at our fax machine! So much dust already!"

Me, "Ya lah! You know.. the 2 luggages, that you placed beside my bed, are also collecting so much dust, my small green pillow beside them's half dusty already lor.. No wonder i'm getting pimples."

Mommy, "HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAH."
Me, "Still laugh! You not guilty one meh?!"

Mommy, "YA!!!!!!! Guilty lah!"

Me, "Then?! That pillow is Chinxiang give one leh.."

Mommy, "Then what you want me to do? No where else to place the luggages already what."

Me, "You go find a way."

*I walked out of the room and brought in the vacuum cleaner*

Me, "Nah, i've already helped you."

WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
So yay~ mommy's already cleared the mess.. & her guilt. LOL.


So anw, parents & i woke up at 4am yesterday to send Ryan to the airport. He's already gone for an exchange program in China for 8 days. And.. the camera's with him! Gee!!!!



The first paper spells failure but laoniang has no regrets 'cos this time, i did put in effort and gave my best so whatever it is.. as long as i know i've improved just a wee bit, i'm contented.. besides, today's paper's only 20% of the module, there's still 80% to work hard for... BUT of course, i'll continue working harder for the upcoming papers.

Tmr's business law paper.
Following day's Fundamentals of Finance.
& the day after that's Financial Market.

Erghhh, rooooarrrrrr, recently i've been telling myself i'm not gonna grow up being a banker, i'm gonna be a tai tai.. filing my pretty nails while calling up my kakis for mahjong/shopping/spa.
Sings: You've got the whole world, in your hands~

WOOHOOOO, song to the max. Shioky, shioky, wolala~


LOL!!!
Okay, that's was damn retarded.



One paper down, 3 more to go.
Thursday 4.30pm's the start of fun!
Friday's booked for karaoke session!

WOOOOOO.

WOOOOOO.

WOOOOOO.

WOOOOOO.

HOW CAN I NOT BE THRILLED?!

Jingle bells, jingle bells,
jingle all the way,
how much fun it is to mug
for just 3 more papers!